Mrs. Independent

I have been struggling with becoming the independent "military" wife who has to take care of everything while the husband is out on business. I am perfectly capable of getting everything done that needs doing. It's the idea of being too independent that bothers me. I don't want become the woman who doesn't need her husband.

I caught the season premiere of Gene Simmons Family Jewels the other day and as Shannon struggled with her emotions and decision whether or not to leave, I felt so much sympathy for her and saw myself in 20 years. It just added fuel to the fire.

Part of me is ok with being able to do "guy" stuff. I pride myself in being one of those girls who can change a tire (while pregnant with twins I might add), lift heavy stuff, take out the trash... you know, those get your hands dirty things that most women shy away from or leave for a man to do. The other part of me just wants to be pampered, just like every other woman.

I know it's necessary for me to step-up when needed, and I always will. Reality is always a hard pill to swallow. I'll take mine with a case of Diet Coke please!